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drawings
& photos
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by
the sea: Melbourne 1998 - 99
Laos
1999 - 2002
Bali
september 2002
Australia
2003
I am sometimes
asked: how did you start to draw ?
first
steps : In 1998 I found myself doing a lot of 'doodling'.
I wanted to draw something but because I had no real training
or background, I was hesitant. I did not think of myself as
having talent or of being “an artist”.
I
remember thinking: "So what ?! who cares ?! - just do what
you want ! No one has to look at it, its just because you want
to do it ! " and from that thought the principles
that have given me the freedom to put pen to paper ever since:
- There
is no such thing as a "wrong" brushstroke, no such
thing as a "wrong" line.
- It does
not matter in the least what anyone else thinks.
- Run with and follow the thread of Feeling, don't worry about 'rules'. What would I want to see/read now... what is interesting, where is the joy and adventure... ?
These
2 principles capture a mood, a feeling not just
an intellectual understanding. What had held me back were the
feelings of inadequacy, the fear of making a "mistake"
or a "wrong" brushstroke and of course the universal
fear of what others would think. They might think it was ugly,
rubbish or whatever. So what ?! I will draw no matter what,
even if no-one ever sees it.
the
method: Once I had entered the feeling-mood given
by these 2 principles, I simply started to draw. There was no
overall plan, I did not try to 'copy something', by that I mean
I did not try to get as close as possible to some 'ideal' picture
I had in mind. Instead I proceeded line by line. The only important
criterion for each new line was: did it feel right ?
The picture of what was on paper already would influence the
feeling for the next line and so on..the method of 'doodling'
is perhaps the best way to drescribe it.
sometimes
I wonder if this is how life is supposed to be lived, at least
for me... looking back it would sometimes seem so: step by step...
line by line... there are no 'wrong' moves...
some
of the drawings took less than an hour, others took a year or
more before they were finished. Some were completed in one sitting,
others were completed in many small stages, a few minutes here
and there waiting for someone, unwinding after work or mulling
over something.
©
2003 heiko
rudolph
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